I know I have been posting often lately, kind of defeats the purpose of keeping secrets right? Anyways this is probably going to be one to summarize most likely the whole week/ year so far/ lifetime so far (i haven't quite been able to catagorize it yet)
I stand in solemn silence
commanding order and abidance
living deaf to moral guidance
and giving enemies pursuit
I step the first of many
my thoughts not worth a penny
I keep my life from any
and give my friends the boot
I walk in calm confusion
hoping life is not a grand illusion
yet conforming to intrusion
and making my point moot
Oh what peaceful, quiet, joy
when I find that life's no ploy
and I can thoroughly enjoy
being the Saviors new recruit
I walk now in new light
finding wisdom in whats right
and no longer ruled by fright
I feed my life with the True fruit
I stand in solemn silence.
random i know but thats y i got the title as such.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Sunsets
This is kind of an explanation for my heading picture.
Recently in my Language Arts class we had to write character poem based on literary analysis of the book THE CRUCIBLE and various outlines that we were given during class. One of the lines of the poem was asking what time of day would fit the character that we chose the best and why. I said night.
This was just a poem, it was not to be the big thing that I'm making it now, but God had different plans. This line remained on my mind for a while, and now I see a picture of a sunset on my computer. And a thought comes to mind.
I am a follower, a conformer, a traitor. My sunset in life was as soon as i was born. The reasons for which i was here began to cast themselves into shadows. These shadows i would surround with golden blankets spun of worn down threads of hope. Each would envelope something i was trying to hide. Life is never easy, and sunsets are a daily reminder of that. Every time I see one it means an end to a day. It means that I survived a situation, that time is coming to an end. At that moment it seems all hope withers away into the abyss of darkness, into a hopeless night that leaves life to trudge along blindly.
Sunsets, though, are the beginning. I may not be able to see what I have done, or why I'm here at all in this very moment. Yet as this day ends, the calamity of time slows into the calm of night. The unsure times of decision come to rest in the home of certainty. Whether there is sleep or not, the night brings the peace of endings. When people die their memory does not fade. Same goes with sunsets. When a day ends the memories will not fade. The lessons we learned, the things we conformed to, the actions we completed, everything comes to an end. There is left but the mystery that entrances us all, the mystery of not knowing what to expect. The sunset is but the curtain closing so that the next scene can be prepared.
Recently in my Language Arts class we had to write character poem based on literary analysis of the book THE CRUCIBLE and various outlines that we were given during class. One of the lines of the poem was asking what time of day would fit the character that we chose the best and why. I said night.
This was just a poem, it was not to be the big thing that I'm making it now, but God had different plans. This line remained on my mind for a while, and now I see a picture of a sunset on my computer. And a thought comes to mind.
I am a follower, a conformer, a traitor. My sunset in life was as soon as i was born. The reasons for which i was here began to cast themselves into shadows. These shadows i would surround with golden blankets spun of worn down threads of hope. Each would envelope something i was trying to hide. Life is never easy, and sunsets are a daily reminder of that. Every time I see one it means an end to a day. It means that I survived a situation, that time is coming to an end. At that moment it seems all hope withers away into the abyss of darkness, into a hopeless night that leaves life to trudge along blindly.
Sunsets, though, are the beginning. I may not be able to see what I have done, or why I'm here at all in this very moment. Yet as this day ends, the calamity of time slows into the calm of night. The unsure times of decision come to rest in the home of certainty. Whether there is sleep or not, the night brings the peace of endings. When people die their memory does not fade. Same goes with sunsets. When a day ends the memories will not fade. The lessons we learned, the things we conformed to, the actions we completed, everything comes to an end. There is left but the mystery that entrances us all, the mystery of not knowing what to expect. The sunset is but the curtain closing so that the next scene can be prepared.
Friday, September 26, 2008
A Sincere Greeting to All
Hello to everyone,
For those who know me you know me well. For those who recognize me you see me well. For those who hear me you listen well. For those who don't you choose well.
For clarification purposes I am not, in any way, a trouble maker unless you consider defending your faith a troublemaker in which I can probably cause you minor inconveniences. My name is Radu, not much more need be said. I follow a core belief that I am saved and attempt to live my life as such, yet I also believe that I am human and thus prone to misdemeanors and mispronounced emotions. I enjoy being one of the loners of society, taking a beating for others and keeping my opinions more to myself. Through recent times I have seen things change. I am more distressed with my situation than with my compensation. My own life has outlived me; twice being born and once dieing. Nothing in time can permit nor can it excuse my selfish desires and the absence of a resolve with which to rid myself of them. I have resolved to use this.... opportunity..... as a way to express some of the many thoughts that often clutter the limits of my mind. Some of these things may be controversial even for me, some may be offensive, some may be personal, and some may just be rambling phrases of nonsense.
Now that you have a scope, let not me deter your focus. You came here for a reason, every reason needs fulfillment.
For those who know me you know me well. For those who recognize me you see me well. For those who hear me you listen well. For those who don't you choose well.
For clarification purposes I am not, in any way, a trouble maker unless you consider defending your faith a troublemaker in which I can probably cause you minor inconveniences. My name is Radu, not much more need be said. I follow a core belief that I am saved and attempt to live my life as such, yet I also believe that I am human and thus prone to misdemeanors and mispronounced emotions. I enjoy being one of the loners of society, taking a beating for others and keeping my opinions more to myself. Through recent times I have seen things change. I am more distressed with my situation than with my compensation. My own life has outlived me; twice being born and once dieing. Nothing in time can permit nor can it excuse my selfish desires and the absence of a resolve with which to rid myself of them. I have resolved to use this.... opportunity..... as a way to express some of the many thoughts that often clutter the limits of my mind. Some of these things may be controversial even for me, some may be offensive, some may be personal, and some may just be rambling phrases of nonsense.
Now that you have a scope, let not me deter your focus. You came here for a reason, every reason needs fulfillment.
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