Friday, October 17, 2008

updates

Hey guys,
I know that I have not exactly been the most active blogger in the world. I don't actually know whats even going on in my mind right now. There are so many things that rush through the empty spaces that were once filled with creativity and imagination. Nothing seems real anymore. Things are not exactly tough, and maybe I just need to change my attitude about life, but I can't find my inspiration. I don't know why this bugs me so much, but it seems as if my sanity is quick to follow the pattern. Anyways, i hope everyone is having a great week. Ill keep you guys posted, maybe i left my mind back at Myrtle Beach, or maybe somewhere along the way. It may yet come back to me.
God bless,
Radu Rodila

Friday, October 3, 2008

True Wisdom

Lately, I feel like i have been stuck in a deep rut of lies and fortifications that i cant escape. My life full of pride seems to take away from who I want to be. My whole life depends on being the social immage that has been built up for me. I feel almost pressured at times to make a wise or deep quotation off the bat like I'm a fortune cookie or something. Truely I know that people do not have this expectation for me, but i feel like its there waiting to trap me. So lately this week I had thoughts come to mind, as i walk home, of what true wisdom is.

Wisdom is not the saying of something wise. Wisdom cannot change a life, or even a mentality for that matter. Wisdom is something that is planted in the soil of the heart by an amazing God, and nothing can change that. Wisdom is what God has taught you, words are the actions that share it. If it changes a life that is great. If it changes someone mentality for the better, then it can be a good thing also. God gives us words for a reason, and we have to use them. Nothing changes unless there is courage of someone to say it. The wise part is that even though everyone knows it, they don't discover it for themselves until AFTER it has been said. I thank everyone for helping me see that the world does not need another lyricist; that all this world really needs is the courage to make the obvious stand in the spotlight for a few seconds, and maybe then can true wisdom shine.

I may not be wise. I am saved, and that makes all the difference. Maybe one day ill find what God has to teach me, and then through my words i may yet act on it.