Transparent Hearts

So this next one I wrote New Years Day, 2:30 in the morning. I was feeling a little confused. I was overjoyed yet i felt a tinge of sorrow, I was content yet I felt shadowed by jealousy, and I was full of energy, yet with every passing minute the pen seemed to get heavier. This one was meant to start out as a song but after the first four lines it turned into a jumble of rhymes, random rhythm patterns, and even some interesting ideas. Anyways I'll just post and hopefully you all can enjoy!

TRANSPARENT HEARTS

I turn once around to see what I'm missing
turn twice around to see that there's nothing missing
yet every turn makes me want to stop and listen
because I'm sure that I am missing, seeing your heart with mine

I grew up thinking about true love
thinking every heart that was alone there must be two of
and if you looked hard enough at all the other ones
you would find where your heart belongs
then maybe you could relate to all those sappy love songs
and as I grew up, reality grew up with me
love had lost it's fairytale innocence and mystery
you can read people like a book
paragraph by paragraph until they have you hooked
yet I learned the heart is a fickle thing
filled with secrets and long sufferings
and yet i still hope to someday find your innocent heart with mine

I leaned to live, I learned to lose
yet every day it's love I chose
because every time I see you I lose
It's like looking through a magnifying glass
It's like seeing clearly only nothing lasts
I look at nothing and yet I see
Beautiful eyes looking back at me
and though my presence may be empty and cold
I still hope your hands I can hold
Because through your transparent heart I see
Only wonder and beauty surrounding me

They say a picture is worth many words
yet the picture of life that I have seen through you
would take all the words I know, true and untrue
So I will offer you this glimpse of my heart
maybe this time you won't see right through
maybe this time you will stop and find
there is always room for you, in this transparent heart of mine